Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Could it be....?

Good evening readers! I'm mobile blogging again and I love it! Today I'm going to write about mixed feelings. I am having mixed feelings now towards this guy who I recently became close with.

Let me fill you in on him. He is from a similar country as mine and really nice to hang out with because he is funny and an all around wonderful person. Here's the catch (you ready folks?)- he is GASP short. And he is balding too. Ok, I know I shouldn't be materialistic but then...the bald part is serious as it can pass down to our children! Definitely not something I want to burden my kids with!

Ok so we have been hanging out a lot lately and I felt we grew closer as friends and confidants. Everything was just fine until two weeks ago when we were hanging out at the mall and then he did something that made our whole relationship really awkward and created an imaginary and uncomfortable wall between us. That moment when he did that. ..I was shocked that he actually had the guts to do it. Like how could he!

But that was not what caused the mixed feelings within me. The causal factor is that I suspect he feels the same way but is trying so hard not to give it away. God! This is where I don't know what to do! I'm so sacred that he might do the inevitable and ask me out.

What the fuck do I do then! Jeepers! I honestly do hope that these feelings that I am dangerously starting to develop towards him are unreal and a figment of my imagination. What I truly hope is that they go away. I don't want to feel that way.

At the end of the day, we are only human so these feelings that we tend to develop are normal. We just have to make sure that these feelings do not lead to us hurting ourselves and being misguided into a pit of betrayal and pain.

Until then, I'm out.

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